Constructive Deconstruction

In a few more hours…

December 25, 2002 on 5:18 pm | In Reflections | 4 Comments

Dear Diary,
In a few more hours I’ll be on a ferry back to tekong island…

What have I done in the past 3 days? I’ve spent much time shopping and packing and ironing. But I guess what’s most meaningful to me is that I got to spend time with my family. With Q and shaz. With Cat. That’s enough to keep me going. Oh, you know something? Cat gave me a Christmas card with a message in it. I think the stuff she wrote was very meaningful. I’ve decided to bring it to camp and storing it in my personal drawer to remind myself why i’ve got to keep myself going in one piece.

You know Q gave me a hug yesterday. Cat kinda like prompted us to give each other a hug or something and then there was a brief moment of hesitation. But we hugged anyway. Heh, i guess there’s some unwritten code that says that guys shouldn go around huggin. But we did.

I’m beginnning to miss them already…

Truth is, I don’t mind going to Tekong and being treated like a dirt recruit. But I guess I’m beginning to miss home. My family. Q and Shaz. Cat. But I guess this is what’ll make me stronger…

*sobz*…I will write again when I book out…Till then, i’ll just phlog my thoughts…

Merry Christmas. Happy New year.

Yours,
Ridzuan

~A soldier I must be to protect the sovereignty of my nation and preserve the smiles of my loved ones, embracing their laughter and letting it fill the air of my world. For King and Country? No. For love.~