Constructive Deconstruction

feeling woozy

i had what i think is a good night’s sleep…heh, and the irritation from yesterday is gone…

but then somehow, i’m feeling rather weird. It’s like my high feels like it’s in some kind of ‘high’…like it’s floating. Not just when i’m walking but when i’m sitting down…

Heh, maybe I should lie down again…

irritating

it’s irritating the crap out of me that the one person that fits the profile and I want to work with to build up xsmatter as an organisation is my ex…and she’ll think i’m just trying to make a pass at her or something…

It’s damn irritating don’t you think that you can’t seem to find anyone else that bothers? I’m beginning to think i’m not demanding enough.

Irritating having to talk to people about xsmatter and then end up saying, "Oh yeah…but right now, it’s mostly just me."

What kind of a fuggin organisation/think tank is that?

On the up side, i think I should be a tad bit happy that my former teacher(who’s now resigned from service) likes the idea and even wants to come for the next chillout…I think it’s time I formed some partnerships with the local organisations…

But i still my own damned team. frig.