Constructive Deconstruction

Soliloquy

November 30, 2006 on 1:35 am | In Random | 1 Comment

Ridz: It’s 1.20am…and i’m not done studying yet…and honestly, I don’t feel like it.

Ridzuan: Yeah. So?

Ridz: I don’t know. I guess I was looking for some kind of validation and encouragement by telling you that…Like say, "It’s ok…I understand. But c’mon, it’s the last paper."

Ridzuan: You’re pathetic you know that? For all the crap you spew, you’re really crap.

Ridz: I know that most of them time. You think I don’t know that? You think it’s easy being me trying to do so many things on my own?

Ridzuan: Well, you crap out when the going gets tough don’t you? It all started with that busted knee don’t you think? That really blew your ego didn’t it, to admit defeat and have to nod your head to shitheads with bars and crabs on their shoulders . Since then, look at yourself your lousy excuse for a shithead - you’ve lost everything. How many friends are still bitching with you? They’re all probably bitching about you now. now now, don’t blame them because you distanced yourself from all of them. Your self-defeating "I’m not good enough for you" attitude probably contributed to your great loss. Losing your first love is big shit isn’t it? It’s still affecting you even now isn’t it? You think your ideal valued life is the way to go don’t you? Well wake up asswipe and smell the damn roses. Everyone’s got it tough. Everyone’s lost a first love. Everyone else who has friends, probably has friends who bitch about them behind their backs. You think you have it worse? You’re afraid to fail aren’t you?

Well listen up kid, you said it yourself…Anyone can get anything if they want it bad enough. Do you want whatever it is you want badly enough?

Ridz: Yeah.

Ridzuan: Good. Then shut up and suck it up.