Constructive Deconstruction

sucky saturday.

April 14, 2007 on 3:18 pm | In Personal Rants | 2 Comments

It’s a saturday afternoon, and of all days, i’m feeling extremely anti-social today….

I woke up this morning feeling quite vexed with myself. I don’t know why but the first thoughts were

"Why are you even trying to be a friend when that person obviously doesn’t really give a rats ass anymore?" The few times you even try to talk, it’s always

busy.
away.
occupied.

and the few times that you’re approached is when…well..your help is needed. And it’s like that for 2 years. It’s really naive to think there’s no time for anything in that 2 years. I don’t mean to sound arrogant but it’s very difficult for many people to be busier than I am(although there are), and even then I’d make time for long-lost friends. Of course, i’m imposing my own values on others here…but i’m ranting so i can do this.

It’s even more pathetic for me to always be the one trying to maintain, salvage, the remnants of what was a good friendship isn’t it?

I’m contemplating just severing ties with all the friends who don’t seem to care about me - all the people who seem to be using me.

Sometimes, people really suck. The closer they are, the suckier they can be.