Constructive Deconstruction

Thoughts.

Was watching Prince William yesterday night…Made me think a little.

I think if i’m going to be the person I want to be…i’ve got to start accepting some things that I don’t like about life. The sooner I accept it, the faster I can move forward.

It’s about time I start doing some things I don’t like. And perhaps just do well in it just to prove to people that I can. Sheesh.

Domesticated me…

It dawned on me that i’m either

a. becoming more responsible in the house.  or
b. becoming really domesticated.

Haha. I realised i’ve spent the past couple of months most excited watching shows like Martha Stewart(cooking),  Rocco Dolce Vita(cooking), Demons to Darlings(parenting) and the Ellen DeGeneres show(girly, housewifey)……what’s happening? lol

And now that my parents are away for the week, i’ve settled in quite well to the role of waking up in the morning to wake my brother up for school, washing the dishes, keeping the homely logistics in order…and yes, nagging at my brother for leaving his plates around, not clearing up, not coming home on time, making sure he’s got his allowance for the day, disciplining him, etc…

…oh yes, i need to wash clothes today…running out of clean clothes. haha

…and i’m doing all that while juggling my work and trying(yes, trying) hard to study.

I’m quite a capable guy hor? lol

What a Wet Day it is today…

Today was such a wet day. You know how things always go wrong at the most ‘right’ moment. I woke up feeling all excited about the day and so i packed my stuff and headed down. And just as I excited the elevator. Boom! Heavy winds coupled with heavy rain made it…well…really really wet. And just when I thought that i’d be safe since I was driving to school today, I realised the parking lot that the car was in was flooded. Yes. Just my lot. Bleagh.

So after walking in the rain to get to the car, i walked right back to my block to get another pair of socks and shoes. ( I really hate the feeling of wet socks..it’s like army all over again ) So yeah, after that i went off to school…

And you know what? The best part of the day was to sit down in the office and change into that dry pair of socks and shoes. Then you just sit there looking out the window where its stormy as hell yet you’re in here all warm and safe.

…if only there was a blanket. and maybe a bed. a pillow too. lol

Getting things in order.

With the end of the NTU E & I Networking Tea Session, a huge load is lifted off my shoulders. A huge thank you goes out to Neo who handled a big part of the coordination work(which is a crappy job I tell you). Thank yous also goes out to the rest of the committee for a job well done - Kelvin, Tian Hong, Xiu Juan, Cherry and the rest of comm. On the supplier end, a huge thank you goes out to Kenny Lim from Stamford for helping me pull off some miracles. Thanks for the thank you card and the corporate gift. (…i’ll call him tomorrow…) By the way, I also worked with Kenny when I was organising the first villagetalk….

So what’s next I ask myself. Symbolically, my clean table just means I’ve made space for the next mess to come in. Firstly, i need to catch up on the academic stuff that i’ve lagged behind. From there, it’s time to grow my other efforts. I’m steering away from talking about work because the nature of it is becoming more and more sensitive. Nevertheless, exciting things are on its way.

The personal life of mine is getting pretty mundane although i think i’m sort of achieving work-life harmony. Haha. Oh! I watched Bourne Ultimatum just now. It’s a superb show I tell you! And I think motorola sponsored the phones or something because almost every character was using one. And I’m now using a motorola too!( I bought it before I caught the show) lol…The scene from Bourne Identity where Matt Damon is running along the beach is reminder that I should start running again soon. I haven’t been able to sustain a running schedule this past year. Horrible. No discipline.

On another note, we’re also working hard to make VillageTalk2 happen so stay tuned!

Finally cleared my desk…

I finally cleared my desk…

What started out as this…

 Soon became this…

And eventually…

And this one i like best! My writing area… =)

Now let’s see how long this lasts…hehe

Guess What I got in the mail…

Following from Jenn’s post title, I got something in the mail too! Much much better than hers! Lol. It couldn’t have come at a better time. And I think it wins space on my desk…

..meaning i’ll have to actually clean the desk so that all the other non-deserving stuff get off it.

Thanks for the card you!

Event: Meet Entrepreneurs Young, Old. Handsome. Pretty.

Are you looking out for opportunities to meet like-minded individuals who have walked the path of turning idea into action?

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Details are as follows:-
Date : 22nd August 2007
Time: 1.30pm to 5pm
Venue : NTU, School of Biological Sciences, Foyer
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This will have to do…

I need a quiet moment.

I need just one short period of time where I can sit down in the midst of all the noise and just think without the voice of guilt nagging in my subconscious going, “Go back to work. Go back to work…go back…go…go…”

You know how it’s so terrible to not be able to sit down and think and listen to yourself? It’s like perpetually waking up and being forced to just move around because of some invisible force that’s pressing against the back of your head. I can’t just float. Ok, well, i’m not floating right now…but it just takes so much more effort than it should to retain my individual thoughts.

I  really want to just be able to sit back once in a while and watch people. maybe listen to the water turning rock into sand. maybe try to figure out what the birds are saying to the trees. and maybe just have a nice cold cup of rose syrup in hand. ok…i don’t need coffee for the picture to be nice. in fact, i think it looks better without the people too.

But for now, this mental picture will have to do…

It’s interesting where and when i find my inspiration. Good night~!

Am I Not Pretty Enough

It would be perfect if there was song written from a guy’s perspective…

 

 Am I Not Pretty Enough by Kasey Chambers [3:20m]: Play Now | Play in Popup | Download

I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me,
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break,
I crave, I love, I’ve waited long enough,
I try as hard as I can.

Am I not pretty enough?
Is my heart too broken?
Do I cry too much?
Am I too outspoken?
Don’t I make you laugh?
Should I try it harder?
Why do you see right through me?

I laugh, I feel, I make believe it’s real,
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees,
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man,
I try as hard as I can.

Am I not pretty enough?
Is my heart too broken?
Do I cry too much?
Am I too outspoken?
Don’t I make you laugh?
Should I try it harder?
Why do you see right through me?

Why do you see, why do you see, why do you see right through me?x4