Constructive Deconstruction

A year in reflection

This year has been kind of slow. While people have been celebrating various successes, i feel like i’ve fallen short of my own expectations.

In trying to pursue the things i’ve set out to start, i’ve succeeded in starting most of them but few are worth mentioning. If anything, 2008 should be the year where these projects begin to blossom.

2007 will also pass after leavining me many new discoveries and realisations about myself and the people around me. Now more than before, i’ve begun to treasure family and my close friends. It’s come to the point where despite my insecurities or an inability to help out, i’ve realised that it’s important to at least tell them how much they matter to me. My family has been through a lot this year both as individuals and as a family unit…and more seems to be on the way.

This year has also been the year where I struggled between blogging and diary-writing. Reading back my archives(which still haven’t been fully ported over), i realised that much of my blogging life usually revolves around a girl. It’s been kind of an emo kid phase that i’m trying to break out of. But this year, i’ve been a tad more objective in my blogging. Especially after being part of ping.sg, the blog no longer became a fully personal space anymore - people from the community who read my blog are actually people who will continue to meet me and form judgments of me. This led to the revival of me writing in my diary again. It’s nice to pick up a pen and actually write. The much slower pace of writing allows one’s thoughts to fully form before they manifest themselves physically. I also kind of started to write snail mail letters again which has become something i look forward to doing except that i’m trying not write too often lest it becomes a nuisance…haha

Every chance I get, I ask myself if i’ve lived a good life and although 1st January 2008 is just going to be another day, it’s somehow life’s way of giving people a chance to close chapters and open new ones.

So have I lived a good 2007?

I think I have. If I could have done anything differently, i’d probably spend a bit more effort taking care of me. But right now, i’ve got all the family and friends who did a great job.

I love y’all…and you.
:p

4/2 New Year Gathering Pictures are up

To the 4/2 people, the gathering photos are up…

They’re accessible this link or you can just click the mosaic tile above.